I cry.....often. I miss his physical presence. I miss his noise. I miss looking into his eyes and I miss his teasing. But, Earl continues to show us that he's here. I know he continues to love me as much as I will continue to love him. Death, in our human understanding of it, does not mean the end of life or even the end of our relationship with loved ones who have passed.
Our loved ones can, and will, send us signs as long as we remain open to receiving them. Earl has let us know of his presence on more than one occasion. My son, Andy, and I have both heard footsteps crossing the upstairs hall when no one was there. Andy says he felt a presence with him in the kitchen one night.
We have rabbits that have been down in the basement until their outside space is ready. Earl was always saying how they needed to get outside. For the first week after he passed three of the bunnies (housed together) were continually escaping from their cage. A cage they had been in for a year and had never gotten out of. I knew this was Earl's way of reminding me that he wanted them outside. I found them out of their cage three times until I finally just asked Earl to stop letting them out. No escapees since.
Pennies have been found in unexpected places. I used the phrase "always& forever" when signing cards and letters to him and one day saw that phrase repeated no less than 5 times. Purple flowers have bloomed in the yard (his favorite color). And my daughter saw and photographed a dragon shaped cloud. Earl loved all things dragon.
So, he is still here. Still sharing his love and letting me know he has not left me. Always & forever, honey!

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